OK, today's the day I've been dreading but here it is and I can't deny it any longer---I have to go through chemo treatments all over again. But at least all the waiting is finally over. I have no idea what what it's going to be like this time. You would think I should, but I'm getting a different combination of drugs and it's at a different hospital and I'm in a study. Could be much better, much worse, or just different. Last time I had Carbo with Taxol and had major fatigue and pain and gained 40 pounds. This time it's going to be Carbo with Topotecan. My biggest fear is being fatigued all the time. Jesus is going to have to by my side constantly if I'm going get through it again.