More endless days of symptoms.  I'm actually keeping a diary of them.  How crazy is that?  Well, I thought that being in a study meant that I would be thoroughly questioned about side effects.  Like which side effects, which days did I have that, how long did that last, how bad was it, etc, etc.  So I figured that if I at least wrote down which side effects I had each day that it would make it easier.  Turns out that this study isn't as intense as all that.  Not at all really.   The nurses simply ask what side effects I've had and jot it down each time I go come in for a treatment or to see the doctor.  Well that's pretty much each week, but not the daily documentation that I thought they would need.  In fact, it really isn't any different than my first encounter with chemo 2 years ago when I was asked about side effects each time I came in. 

I guess at this point, I'm using the diary more for myself.  I can refer back to previous rounds and see where I stood on that day of the cycle.  I can see that, yes, I had 3 days of feeling crummy, but on the 4th day after chemo, it was better.  It really is true for me that my body reacts pretty much the same each time.  Of course with each extra chemo treatment, overall it gets rougher, but the trend is amazingly consistent.  That's how I know that I should feel somewhat better tomorrow.  And just in time too because the day after that I have a CT scan.  Now that's a trend that I wish would stop.  The crummy days are lasting just a bit longer with each treatment.  I only get to feel better right before another treatment/scan and then it'll be more crummy days until the next.   I pray that my somewhat okay days don't disappear altogether by having the crummy days from the previous treatment overlap with those of the next treatment.  Yes, Jesus, I need that day or two to make it to the next treatment.  I still have at least 2 more scans and 4 treatments to do for my last two rounds of chemo.  Give me the strength to make it...