I love autumn.  It's my favorite time of year.  I suppose it's because the cooler weather and changing leaf colors trigger my inner need to start planning for the holidays.   Call me crazy, but I'm one of those that love the hustle and bustle.  And even more so now that I know precious it is to be here to plan and enjoy the holidays this year.  Yes, despite doing chemo treatments, I'm not going to let cancer steal any more away from me.  It's hard being weak and tired but that doesn't mean that I can't be in on it yet on some level.  Sure in past years, I would be the one to do most of the decorating, but it's just as fun to sit back and be a part of it this year. 

Today began the prep for Halloween.  My husband got out all the decorations and carefully made a list of everything.  Yes, over the years of taking advantage of the after Halloween sales, I've collected quite a lot.  We sat down together and decided on a theme and which decorations to use.  Then I left it up to him to execute.  I snuck out doors a time or two to check the progress and enjoyed the fight he had with the tangled string of lights and the stubborn foam tombstones that refused to stay upright.  But in the end, it turns out my husband is quite good at decorating.   The trick-or-treaters are going to enjoy it.

I'm learning a lot of lessons from  having cancer.  It's okay to let go, to accept that, and to know it's fine to be a small part of things.   I don't have to always be in control and the center of everything.   Actually only God is in control of everything, and that's a very good thing and the way it should be.  That's how I'm getting through this all ----in God's good and loving hands, and that's enough for me.