Another day, another topotecan headache along with sneezing, being tired, and my latest side effect of dizziness.  If I sit for a while and get up, I get this intense dizzy sensation.  So I stop and stand still for a minute and I'm okay to walk, but with each step, there's intense pressure on my head and then there's this throbbing which lasts for another minute.  And yes, this is on top of the constant topo headache I already have.  I don't like this latest symptom at all.  I'm worried that I'll faint and hurt myself or stay passed out for hours.   I suppose that's needless worry since I haven't so far and this dizziness happens all the time now.   But still, it's just another reminder that I'm not well. 

But at least, I know what is causing this new symptom.  It's my low red blood count.  When I stand up, my blood pressure lowers and my brain isn't getting enough oxygen so I feel dizzy.   I can literally feel my heart pounding blood to my brain.  I want to think I should be getting better and better each day since I'm in my last week of my last round, but with each round, it just gets harder and harder with more and more side effects.  I'm so ready for this to be over with.  Next week I have a scan and see the doctor for the results and what to do from there.  I pray it won't be any more treatments.  I really don't think I can handle any more.