Miracles and Wonders
I'm not afraid of you anymore, Cancer
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I was terrified after I met Cancer. He was a stranger who I never wanted to meet. He
brought with him a whirlwind of doctors, surgery, and treatment plans. The long
months of chemo gave me time to settle down with my thoughts, and honestly, I lived
in fear most of that time. It was rough, real rough. My new "friend", Cancer, was a
cruel and devious thief. Silently and stealthily he crept into my body to steal my health.
He was an unwelcome intruder who planned to rob me of my life. Shock, fear and
vulnerability filled me from the moment of my introduction to this stranger. He has
taken so many things away from me. Gone are my carefree days of routine living.
Gone are my days of freedom to do whatever I wanted with the day. Gone are my
days of not questioning my future. Even the mirror reflects what has been stolen.
There are days I don’t even recognize the person I see. This robber has slowly taken
pieces of me away. Some will be returned back to me, while others are gone forever.
I fight back with what strength he has left me, but this thief is so determined.
Somehow though, I made it through with the help of Jesus and family and friends and I
was told I had a complete response and was in remission. Life seemed grand again and
wonderful, but still, Cancer remained at my doorstep because he refused to leave my
mind. He stayed to taunt my thoughts that I would see him again with a recurrence. I
prayed and tried to stay positive and refuse Cancer reentry in my life. But he is so
determined and continued to lurk.
It was 14 months later when Cancer again knocked at my door. My worse fear came
ttue. Again with doctors and a new treatment plan. But somehow it’s not like the first
time. Cancer, you may have stolen a lot of things from me and changed me, but Jesus
has changed me too and blessed me with more than you took. The weak vulnerable
woman that first met you is gone. I’m stronger and more patient and know that I have
the support of my family and friends, and that I have the faith I need to overcome
you. With God by my side, I can face you for what you are and you no longer scare
me. I am no longer afraid of you, Cancer. Go away.
In three days, I’ll start the last of six rounds of chemo for the recurrence. The CT
scan after my 4th round showed no evidence of cancer and I have no doubt that the
PET scan I’ll have after finishing chemo will once again show a complete response and
I’ll be in complete remission. But I don’t have to wait until then, because Jesus and I
both already know that Cancer has left my doorstep once and for all. With faith, I’m
not afraid anymore.
brought with him a whirlwind of doctors, surgery, and treatment plans. The long
months of chemo gave me time to settle down with my thoughts, and honestly, I lived
in fear most of that time. It was rough, real rough. My new "friend", Cancer, was a
cruel and devious thief. Silently and stealthily he crept into my body to steal my health.
He was an unwelcome intruder who planned to rob me of my life. Shock, fear and
vulnerability filled me from the moment of my introduction to this stranger. He has
taken so many things away from me. Gone are my carefree days of routine living.
Gone are my days of freedom to do whatever I wanted with the day. Gone are my
days of not questioning my future. Even the mirror reflects what has been stolen.
There are days I don’t even recognize the person I see. This robber has slowly taken
pieces of me away. Some will be returned back to me, while others are gone forever.
I fight back with what strength he has left me, but this thief is so determined.
Somehow though, I made it through with the help of Jesus and family and friends and I
was told I had a complete response and was in remission. Life seemed grand again and
wonderful, but still, Cancer remained at my doorstep because he refused to leave my
mind. He stayed to taunt my thoughts that I would see him again with a recurrence. I
prayed and tried to stay positive and refuse Cancer reentry in my life. But he is so
determined and continued to lurk.
It was 14 months later when Cancer again knocked at my door. My worse fear came
ttue. Again with doctors and a new treatment plan. But somehow it’s not like the first
time. Cancer, you may have stolen a lot of things from me and changed me, but Jesus
has changed me too and blessed me with more than you took. The weak vulnerable
woman that first met you is gone. I’m stronger and more patient and know that I have
the support of my family and friends, and that I have the faith I need to overcome
you. With God by my side, I can face you for what you are and you no longer scare
me. I am no longer afraid of you, Cancer. Go away.
In three days, I’ll start the last of six rounds of chemo for the recurrence. The CT
scan after my 4th round showed no evidence of cancer and I have no doubt that the
PET scan I’ll have after finishing chemo will once again show a complete response and
I’ll be in complete remission. But I don’t have to wait until then, because Jesus and I
both already know that Cancer has left my doorstep once and for all. With faith, I’m
not afraid anymore.